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It is meThere's something there. Something good.
I can see it and feel it, but I cannot put a name on it,
Though I ought to be able to.
I know it's important.
It's probably vital to my life.
My existence would be near null without it.
But I cannot name it.
With every beat of my heart the image of this thing floods my mind.
Whether it is in my eyes or not, it consumes my very being.
Yet I cannot name it.
The frustration I feel due to this is in constant foray the very thing I cannot name.
The throbbing behind my eyes, across my mind, and even in my soul is the price I pay.
But I did nothing wrong. Life kept me moving.
The constant flow of the world around. It pushed me.
I fight the urge to clean the slate. This very slate upon which I write.
Often times I feel that I am not whole. I am not one. I am so much more than that.
It is the overabundance that drives me to do the things I do not desire to do.
I think it's me.
Have I lost
My Mind Needs RestI used to be able to write. I'd write all the time. In fact, when I wrote it was the only way I could truly get my feelings out, my point across, and the only way I could understand myself.
But that was before.
Now it seems like every time I start to write something, even if the idea behind the writing itself was based on something completely solid, I can't get more than a few pages into it before I turn on myself and decide to delete the words and close the application so I can't go back to what I had. And that's if I'm lucky. Mostly I write a line, maybe two, and I have to completely forget the idea ever existed.
It's like I don't even want to read the drivel spewing forth from my own fingers. I find myself disgusting. I mean, not me, but ME. I can't stand to look at my own words. It's like when you hear your own voice on a recording. Usually it's not the you that you imagine yourself b
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